Monday, November 18, 2019

This Decade And The Next...

About 40 Days of 3,652 Days in this Decade (and 2 leap years… 2012, 2016)

That's it...!

There are only about 40 days left in this decade.

Thinking about this decade it brought me to a place of reflection. Where was I January 1, 2010...

Here is the story, in brief.

On January 1, 2010 - at the stroke of midnight I was pregnant with my now oldest daughter, Emma. I was about to be a single mom. I hate to say this, but I loathed the mental space, professional space, and relationship space I was in. I was living at my very supportive parent's home, with very little prospect of a strong career that I have longed to have. See, I graduated from my undergraduate degree during the academic year of 2008-2009. The economy was tanked and my spirits were along with it. I will be honest, I felt like the ultimate failure. I graduated as an undergrad as a mediocre student, with a strong understanding of people and an ability to link unseen things together. But, I hadn't yet harness my abilities. Amazingly, my closest family and friends all dug in to support me, and in time, I started to grow.

Let's take a look at the life events that made up 2010-2019…

  • February 16, 2010: Emma is Born (I remember laying in bed one night 4 days after she was born thinking about how perfect she was and questioning how I was going to be able to do this for 18 years...)
  • March 17, 2011: First Date with Doug
  • January 2012: The Twins were born
  • May 23, 2012: I Start My Internship with Caterpillar (This is where I learned the truth about leadership and career development, and how to perform - NOT compete)
  • July 1, 2012: London - Here I Come
  • December 1, 2012: Masters of  Business Administration (with a 3.85 GPA… damn it Economics, my only "B")
  • December 12, 2012: Full-Time Job with Caterpillar as an HR Associate, Professional Development Program
  • March 23, 2013: Wedding Day
  • March 2014: Move to Waco, Texas
  • August 2014 Emma's First Trip to Disney World (Emma called this the "best day ever!!" and I cried in the Magic Kingdom - literally I had to hide it behind my sunglasses)
  • June 21, 2015: Find Out I Am Pregnant (And its was the best Fathers Day gift I could give to Doug and my dad)
  • February 17, 2016: Charley is Born
  • May 2016: Brother Graduated From Medical School (cried at his dinner and graduation because I do not know if he will understand how proud of him I am)
  • May 2010: Bought Our First Home
  • June 2016: Move Back to Peoria
  • September: My Sister Married Her Best Friend (Not me! Her amazing husband)
  • January 2018: Decided to Get Healthy (and lost 52 pounds)
  • August 2018: Faith Re-Envisioned 
  • July 2019: New Role at Caterpillar 
  • October 2019: Move to Arkansas

The summary of this decade brought and kept some of the most amazing people in my life. In hindsight, really the best of my memories are centered around experiences and the people I had them with. Thank you! Thank you with every sense of my being for all of you who were there with and for me.

I guess looking back at all of it, if I didn’t feel the growing pains in the beginning, I would not appreciate ALL of the amazing things that happened. They do not call them growing pains for no reason… Even looking back at this blog and how it started, as profession advice from a young professional over 7 years ago. To creating a digital diary of my most intimate thoughts for the world to read. Like Rachel Hollis says, I just put it out there for the world because someone can benefit, and maybe, just maybe, it will make this journey just a bit easier for the next person. 

Looking to 2020 and beyond, it won't be easy. It never is. But I want to make it intentional filled with faith, love, joy, and laughter. Honestly, this past decade had its fair share of lows, however, there were far better highs. Yet, most important, I truly grew - I am not the same person I once was (and that change feels so good - again it wasn’t easy, but it was good).

I guess so to say in short, the decade wasn’t perfection, but it was progress. And ultimately that’s all that matters. Let's stay the course and keep moving forward. 

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