As I sit here and wonder about life (which is something I do a lot of; debating, thinking, and reflection on events and happenings) and I am still really stuck on this thing called wisdom. I have been spending a lot of time on the book of Proverbs. And I had to ask myself a difficult question, if God Himself came to me and said he would give me any gift I asked for, what would I ask for?
When I was little I remember sitting at Holy Family listening to Father Steve talk about wisdom and King Solomon. And I vividly remember my third grade self being like, “ I want wisdom! I want to be smart!” Such an innocent and young thought - I really believed if I had wisdom I could get straight “A”s. It was not until my "adult" life, that I realized that wisdom does not work that way, not for all of us at least. Unlike Solomon we won’t be blessed with and all encompassing wisdom, we will, however, be blessed to have experiences that bring us insight that then in turn gain us wisdom. However I’ve come to find that wisdom can only be gained when I am conscious enough to think about and reflect on the situation and to look for it. Actively seeking wisdom out.
For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will delight you.
Discretion will watch over you,
and understanding will guard you.
Proverbs 2: 10-11
Proverbs 2: 10-11
Now, to answer the question at hand. I have to be honest with myself (and you!), I do not think wisdom is the first thing that comes to mind, when I can have ANYTHING. I immediately go to the flashy… sorry just being honest with y'all. I think I would ask for something that lets people know, "this is Tiffany's 'God spoke to me gift!'" If I could emoji this moment, it would one of these two 🧐 🤷🏽♀️- Because to be honest, I really don’t think I am “wise enough” to have asked for wisdom- but God knows that already.
Remember, pain has purpose (it's called growing pains for a reason). If only you seek it out humbly.